Every time I meet a new person, I will always have this nagging feeling that it will fail because of past events. Maybe I don't have enough confidence in myself or something. I really don't understand this feeling. Hm..

19 years and I really appreciate every second that I have lived.

Up to this day, I still cannot be myself whenever I am around that person. I feel really different and also depressed. It's like some sort of anxiety attack that Tony Stark was facing when talking about New York. Same goes to me when talking about some topics. Do I need time to heal or do I need to people to help me overcome this problem? I am really unsure :'(

As I see in my surroundings, I began to see changes in some people. Changes that they themselves don't seem to realize. Whether is it for the good or the bad, there must be a story behind it that made you the way you are now. If only I could read minds...

Not even sad anymore. It has just become a memory in the past.

I guess this is the journey that will bring me towards somewhere. I hope I do come back a different person.

Why do I feel that something is making me keep losing focus? I can't seem to figure it out what is it and it is scaring me badly.