Every time I meet a new person, I will always have this nagging feeling that it will fail because of past events. Maybe I don't have enough confidence in myself or something. I really don't understand this feeling. Hm..

19 years and I really appreciate every second that I have lived.

Up to this day, I still cannot be myself whenever I am around that person. I feel really different and also depressed. It's like some sort of anxiety attack that Tony Stark was facing when talking about New York. Same goes to me when talking about some topics. Do I need time to heal or do I need to people to help me overcome this problem? I am really unsure :'(

As I see in my surroundings, I began to see changes in some people. Changes that they themselves don't seem to realize. Whether is it for the good or the bad, there must be a story behind it that made you the way you are now. If only I could read minds...

Not even sad anymore. It has just become a memory in the past.

I guess this is the journey that will bring me towards somewhere. I hope I do come back a different person.

Why do I feel that something is making me keep losing focus? I can't seem to figure it out what is it and it is scaring me badly.

Have I become a hypocritical person? From the actions that I've done, it sure looks likes it. Sigh

I miss those times when you were once my friend but I took you for granted because I was afraid and unsure. But I think you changed for the better in terms of personality and I'm really proud of that. I do hope one day, things can be normal again between us.

The things I did just to forget you.

Aw not another round of isolation again

Haven't been blogging lately and I feel so bad about it. Always doing work until I forget about my social life. :(

Now would be a good time to break down. Sigh.

Expectation leads to disappointment.

Kept thinking about what ustaz said just now about the thing where if you and that somebody are meant to be together, there is no force in this world that can stop you both from being together someday. So this teaches me to push my patience to a level, higher than I could have ever imagined. It's a tough journey but it is possible. Insyaallah. :)

Why is it when I'm searching for a particular thing, another thing pops out of out nowhere? And if I'm not, it still happens. Life's unknown logic is unknown.

OFF TO SCHOOL TOMORROW. HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D