When you're left in the lurch, you have no one else to blame except yourself. How sad, after all what I've been through.

Tired. I neglected my blog yet again. Haiz

Getting scolded by parents really suck a lot because they do not understand what I've gone through for the past few days. I guess I have to suck it up then. :'/

And today I found out the truth about you. All the answers that I've been searching has been revealed. I feel so much relieved right now. :) I hope someday you change for the better. Let go of the haunting past and seek the bright future.

All I need are answers. Maybe it doesn't need to come so soon but I hope there's signs to show them.

Nearly 1 week after the event happened. There's still no sign of any salvation of some sort. Haiz, it's just so hard...

I really can't explain today. Firstly, it was quite enjoyable. Then, as the day goes by, I suddenly felt so queasy like an unexplainable feeling because of someone. So then, I kept calm and hoped that it would soon die down but no, things like this usually drag on without the person unknowingly hurting my feelings. I'm at a lost now because she may or may not know that she is confused. I should hear answers and not supposed to be asking questions. Haizz. :S

Sometimes I don't understand you honestly. There are times that I feel you need someone to talk to but then when I ask you say it's ok. I am really confused but wish to help you and I do not know how to start it. It makes me look like a failure to care for you properly.

Just another day where City lost to United. I'm too distraught to even summarise about the match. But our boys played their hearts out. So CTID! :D

Today I learnt a lot. Every week I learn so much more than before. Tawadu' lebihkan. Takabbur kurangkan. :)

Somehow I feel really unappreciated by the person I quite appreciate a lot.

I admit, I indeed failed to prove myself that I am the one who should strive for this paper to avenge the ghost of the past Amath paper for the O levels. One more shot left, the end of year paper. The one to prove whether I still have the strength to bounce back from defeat. You can do it Aziz.

Tomorrow it's her birthday and here I am still thinking of what to write to her. Been thinking a lot too, like what if she doesn't quite find my present interesting, or whether will she like the card or whether will accept one of the gifts. It's tough but the next day will arrive soon. So I'll just go with the flow.

A long road to go

The journey of a thousand steps begins with the single step.

Fresh new year

Tomorrow marks a new school day. But in polytechnic, the calendar's a bit screwed up so it is technically called term 4 of the second semester. New enemies, new topics, new race for success. And yeah, it's my turn to succeed after laying so low for so long until they have overtaken me. No, no, nobody overtakes Abdul Aziz.