Everything is in a mess and the only one who can sort it all out is me. But what am I doing now? Wasting away time and much more. Even now as I type, it is a waste of time but it's ok. This is an exception. Haiz. I need motivation but where do I find it? The phone and the bag are my mum's attempt of giving me a boost of motivation but I feel that it is not enough. Yes, I know it is unfair for her. Maybe I need a push. It may happen sooner or later. I hope it is the former.