July's already here and I still act like nothing is happening. Such a wrong time to be relaxing. MST results show that I am in fact the last in the rat race. Well, that is demoralising because I used to be the top and *snap* suddenly you're behind all of your peers. Some motivation could be good right now but I think I'm really getting none right now so yeah, that sucks. Self-motivation is all I have but without self discipline, it's pointless. Time to get back to square one. I hope there's less distractions this time round.